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    Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
    1:53 am
    Fuck being nice, fuck you
    soo tomorrow im having a birthday party for my best friend jenn, its supposed to be a small gathering of peole i invited and local friends. but NO I get dreaming of a better day to play and all of a sudden its a show or a "party" at shanas hosue and everyone assumes there invited or pokes at me to invite them well fuck you guys. i am honestly sick of being nice to you and i finally stood up for myself tonight and im going to start to from now on im not going to kiss anyones ass fuck you people i shouldnt care that much about anyones opinions anyways i will say what i want and stand up for myself.so no your not invited! i dislike you in the worst way! im never having a party again, no matter how good my intentions.

    thanks to everyone who spread the word. fucking assholes.

    late

    Current Mood: annoyed
    Current Music: TBS
    Sunday, November 17th, 2002
    6:33 pm
    And anothers tainted
    so im not feeling to good right about now..I'm not depressed just sad.. how come all the guys i go out with or the guy i want to go out with have already just before been fucked over by a girl and tainted i hate females and i hate feelings. i dont want to care this much so im not, belive that? yeah me either. im gonna call andy and hang out he'll make me feel better and laugh.
    Tuesday, November 12th, 2002
    7:05 am
    you'll never get to see a smile on this face again.
    love is just a word, and you say it in vain,you never loved me cause you never changed, it only goes so far when actions speak louder then words, i want to hate you soo bad for this. you did this to yourself your your own creation and we mean nothing to you its obvious even as your crying begging for forgivness im cold crying and desolate its not just this its everything when i was a little kid soo many things could have been different i could be different im just another fucked up kid. im far past im sorrys i didnt want this to mean this much to me, i broke down i let you hurt me again, these scars on my wrist are a constant reminder of the pain youve caused. brian is your name dad is dead your dead to me theres no coming back this time.
    6:17 am
    why father? what happens when all your credibility is gone?
    Yes so i wake up go out in the kitchen to see my dad high as fuck again i knew this would happen i just was hoping i was wrong, it was nice while it lasted and i hate my mom for making me love him again i hate myself for letting my walls down i knew and yet i was weak enough to let myself care again. negative sure look at my fucking environment im an angry little kid as a direct result of all of this. 5am im sorry i called so late russ, thank you, i love you. im going to go die now.

    Current Mood: disappointed
    Current Music: arch enemy
    Thursday, October 24th, 2002
    11:47 pm
    Monday, October 21st, 2002
    10:01 pm
    How kinky am I..
    wild woman



    You Are a Wild Woman!


    Put down the whip and unlace those come-fuck-me boots!


    You definitely qualify as kinky - and not just occasionally.


    You've exhausted every fantasy, but you're always open to new ones.


    Your sexual encounters are usually spiced with role-play, bondage, new positions,
    props, and fun fetishes.



    Are *You* Kinky? Click Here to Find Out!

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    Sunday, October 20th, 2002
    11:01 pm
    How can a band have so much talent??
    I havent updated in soo damn long.
    For starters last weekend we all went up to salinas it was fun as shit except Ibi was in our car, asked leah to suck his dick, the usual.The show was good.We stayed at the guys from fate 13's house after, those salinas kids are some of the coolest people. Enough of that. So this weekend went to micheals on friday slept over went to the hougies show, left, went to point saw someone i havent seen in a while,it sparked up old feelings, i was/am almost over it. fucker. left went to in-n-out left, went home, stayed up with andy and josh watching ROMY AND MICHELLES HIGHSCHOOL REUNION and talking, that movies bad ass, stayed up talking till 5-6. Its Andys birthday tomorrow, had a b.b.q for him today it was fun, got whooped in basketball. Hopefully andy makes it happen and we go to wisconsin for End this days last show. i have to do some thing tomorrow for this girl jackie she has to take a cosmetology test and im her model, i hope she doesnt fuck up my hair. I ordered End this day cd online today, should be here in a couple days im excited. that is all.

    Current Mood: amused
    Current Music: End This Day
    Monday, October 14th, 2002
    12:43 am
    hmmm

    SUICIDE

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    Thursday, October 10th, 2002
    12:40 am
    bored
    yes. i am bored
    1)Starting time: 12:45am
    2)Your Name: Shana Voegeli
    3)Nicknames: Peanut
    4)School: Harbor Gateway
    5)Email: shanaocbco@aol.com
    6)Eyes: brown
    7)Height: 5'2
    8)Pets:a cats, a dog
    9)Siblings: dustin,cory,sean,megan
    10)Been so drunk you blacked out: nah. i handle my shit
    12)Gone out in public in your pajamas? yeah
    13)Missed school because it was raining: yesss.
    14)Set any body part on fire for amusement: burn my arms and hands
    15)Kept a secret from everyone: yeah
    16)Wanted to hook up with a friend: yeah
    18)Cried during a flick: yeah, im a pussy
    19)Had a crush on a teacher: naw
    20)Ever thought an animated character was hot? hell yes.
    21)Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block:nope i was never cool enough
    24)Been on stage: only for sing alongs
    --------------FAVORITES------------------
    25)Shampoo: herbal essance, or pantine pro v
    27)Colors: black, red, pink, grey
    28)Day/Night: night for sure
    29)Summer/Winter: winter
    30)Online Smiley: lame.
    31)Lace or satin: lace
    32)Cartoon Character: eat me
    33)Cereal: hmmm. thats a toughy. pops probably
    34)Liked anyone: yeah Russ
    35)Who have you known the longest of your friends: Vanessa
    36)Who's the loudest friend: Im pretty damn loud.
    37)Who's the shyest: Jenn
    38)Who do you go to for advice: Vanessa, Russ, Mike, Traci
    39)Who do you get the most surveys from: nobody
    40)Who do you cry with: i dont cry with anyone you think im a pussy. Russ, vanessa.
    -----------IN THE LAST 2 Weeks------------
    41)Cried: yeah
    42)Cut your hair:nope
    43)Worn a skirt: yeah
    44)Met someone new: yeah
    45)Talked to someone you have a crush on:yeah Russ <3
    46)Thrown up: nope
    48)Missed someone:yeah
    49)Hugged someone: yeah
    51)Wished upon a star:nope, what is this a disney channel original
    52)Laughed until you cried: nope
    53)Played Truth or Dare: unfortunatly no
    54)Watched a sunrise/sunset: no
    55)Went to the beach at night: no
    56)Spent quality time alone: nope
    57)Read a book for fun: nope
    58)Ate a meal: ummm. yeah like every waking moment
    59)Are you lonely: nooooo
    60)Are you happy: yesss
    61)Are you talking to someone online: not at the moment
    64)The Closet Monster: what the fuck
    65)Do u believe that Richard from Survivor is gay? hell yes
    68)What is your full name?: Shana Leigh Voegeli
    69)Who named you?: my mommy
    70)Backstreet Boys or Nsync?: nsync justin boned britney how cool is that fuck!
    71)Christina or Britney? Well i just saw christinas new video, god damn christina wins im sorry shes nasty.
    72)What color pants do you have on right now?baby blue bed shorts
    73)What song are u listening to right now? papercuts_ broken hearts
    74)What was the last thing that you said online: bye
    76)What is your computer desk made of?: wood
    79)Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? australia
    80)Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? im not sure
    81)What is your favorite song? i couldnt say
    82)How's the weather right now?? not sure
    84)What did you do last night? talked to russ til 7 in the morning
    84)how are you today? im okay i wish i was talking to russ but whatever
    87)How do you eat an Oreo? put it in my mouth
    88)What makes you happy? fun people, my friends
    90)Dream car? an old bronco with the shell off
    91)have you ever won any awards? yeah
    92)If it's MY McDonald's why do I have to pay? fuck mcdonalds all togeather
    93)What are your future goals? college
    94)My fave music? hardcore, some metal, emo
    95)Favorite Food? i dont know
    96)Favorite movies? snatch, super troopers, baby boy
    97)Fave day of this year? i dont know
    98)Fav guys/girls cologne? Curve!
    99)Do you like to dance? yeah
    100)Fast or slow? fast
    101)Are you too shy to ask someone out? no i just think its wrong
    102)If you could change your name, what would it be? i wouldnt
    103)Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nope
    104)What do you sleep in? depends
    105)Have you ever been in love? i think
    106)What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? too many to say
    107)What will your first son's name be? Gavin
    108)First daughter? valceria
    109)Do you like scary or happy movies better? funny movies
    111)Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? I just got off the phone with Delgado
    113) If you could change something about yourself what would it be? maybe be nicer
    114) Do you consider cheerleading a sport? fuck no
    115) Finish Time:1:00am

    Current Mood: bored
    Current Music: Taking back sunday
    Tuesday, October 8th, 2002
    2:57 pm
    DO IT OR DIE.. I love you
    I stole this from Martien <3

    Take this quiz and reply to it as a commment on here...

    01. When did we meet?
    02. How did we meet?
    03. Have we ever met in person?
    04. Have we ever talked on the phone?
    05. Have you ever seen me cry?
    06. Have you ever seen me dance?
    07. Describe me using three or less words.
    08. If you could spend a day with me, what would we do?
    09. Have we ever gotten in a fight?
    10. Have you ever dreamt of me? If so, tell me about it.
    11. If you could give me a present, what would it be?
    12. Would you hug me?
    13. Would you kiss me?
    14. What do you REALLY think of me?
    15. Do you trust me?
    16. Do you know something about me that no one else knows?
    17. Do you even know how old I am (without looking at my LJ profile! Don't cheat!)?
    18. Anything you wanted to tell me but never got a chance to?



    do it. and love me. ALOT.

    Current Mood: mellow
    Current Music: Arkangel
    2:18 pm
    Real Nice...
    So yesterday I slept in till 3 woke up went to vanessas we went swimming and shit.Then I went home and James came over we watched Super Troopers, funniest movie ever. I was kinda sad the whole time though Russ said he might come down and he was hanging out with some girl lastnight, he never even called to say he wasnt going to be down here. so thats lame. whatever so I LOVE Martine she got me a ticket for plea for peace and its been sold out for a while. soo happy I <3 you. haha and I found out Traci let the v card slip. haha. anyways I love you jenn and carly and martine it will just be us from now on yo.

    I <3 Russ, why the fuck hasnt he called me!. lame

    Current Mood: disappointed
    Current Music: Arch Enemy
    Sunday, October 6th, 2002
    9:04 pm
    Word...
    So lastnight was CUAD, there amazing,they sound exactly like there cd live. Anyways, after that i went with Russ back to his house, I <3 him. I love being with him. So I talked to mike today hes amazing. I have to do 15 assignments by wensday weird shit. James is suppsed to be on a date with some girl tonight. Go james. <3 <3

    Current Mood: calm
    Current Music: Hope Conspiracy
    Wednesday, October 2nd, 2002
    2:16 am
    BURY YOUR FUCKING DEAD...
    Fuck they saved hardcore.haha.. I'm really excited I'm going to go visit Russ tomorrow. So the fun will be had tomorrow. hmm Vanessa Carlton is amazing, id hit. Joe fucking jesus is coming over on sunday. CUAD on saturday. I <3 you hunny..Mike your one of my favorite people. oh yeah I'm getting 3 OOO's tattooed in my lip on friday haha and im getting that thing under my top lip pierced. Set your clock to 3:10 bitch. We'll fucking rock you haha.

    Current Mood: excited
    Current Music: Vanessa Carlton yo
    Monday, September 30th, 2002
    1:25 am
    Im missing you bad.
    went to FA/A7x tonight. I wanted to stay home and talk to someone special but i had to go, it was alright we left early and came home and watched manhunter, sucha fucking cool movie, damn. anyways i was out at mike and andypants this weekend. me and mike make fun of andy like no other, its only cuz we <3 you and were jealous of how fucking cool your hair is. HAHA.dont worry you made up for my jokes by the arm to my throat tonight i thought i was gonna die,honestly. hmm i saw falling cycle and sanai beach on saturday good bands,crappy venue whatever.I cant wait to watch the salute your shorts episode, im excited.Dont you hate when youve done soo much but have nothing to fucking say. I wasnt very social tonight. I hate people, i hate you. die. <3<3

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Current Music: Evergreen Terrace
    Tuesday, September 24th, 2002
    11:46 pm
    i need to die, me or everyone else
    I fucking hate people.. i think i should just be pissed off all the time seriously it keeps your head clear haha if you hate everyone there opinions wont matter good or bad.. im soo sick right now i probably deserve it i hate myself i always fuck things up. girls suck them and there lame drama i dont know why i started hanging out with them again. i turned into everything i hated.. once again i hate myself.. "I close my eyes just for tonight. the sun still sleeps when she awakes"- i love this song.. so yeah i ruined a good friendship over a boy, lame. i got my car on sunday its a honda accord. my moms always drinking i cant quit smoking. maybe ill get cancer soon. i got into a fight on friday it felt good kicking her ass. ive been hanging out alot with mike hes a really cool guy so is andypants there the type of people that can keep you sane same with jason and james. it was anthonys b-day today i went over to his house and brought him his presents that was fun and me and vanessa laid out today. i dont feel like writing. im out. <3
    Thursday, September 12th, 2002
    5:33 pm
    For every 1 person who talks shit I have 5 friends ready.
    I've been learning alot about myself lately. Im really happy there have been a lot of past situations that have been making me think about what and who i am-ugly and im going to change that. I'm doing soo much better now hoenstly, this is good. I have a whole shit load of people who care about me and a lot of really down ass friends. Right now im at carlys she just went to windsors for a second interview. christine came over today, she wasnt doing too good. damn i dont know how anyone could be religous with everything so fucked up. eh i dont know. tomorrow is wtyl im soo fucking excited seriously im going to just murder kids haha j/k. but no seriously I hate rumors and i hate gossip any shit talkers better watch out bad charma is shitty.I was at vanessas and her boyfriends place yesterday it was rad meh anyways jd likes me i dont want anyone right now though. im out. leave me some love yo. <3 <3

    Current Mood: creative
    Current Music: Burnt By The Sun
    Wednesday, September 11th, 2002
    11:59 am
    I just love it when a nigga brings his whole crew...
    Yes so in my last entry I didnt tell about my weekend/week. So wendsday was converge it was alot of fun i got to see everyone i <3 and the few that I dont,bitches.Thursday I went to seans and we had some fun we were alone then vigil and ben picked us up and we went to johns and a few people were there it was much fun,Shana got some haha .too bad whatever.. then friday Mitch came down and we went to venice and messed with bums haha funniest shit ever
    bum-"whats up with all this damn vampire shit"
    mitch and me-"*laughing hysterically**walking by incredibly fast*"
    then saturday I went to Traci's. Babs,Traci and Pat and me went to Del and then to the show in dana I hooked up with this hot girl Alese we exchanged numbers,fun. Sunday we all went to the wedge and then to Kyle's house he made some dank ass spaghetti and bread. came home sunday night. monday didn't do shit, tuesday I died my roots black again and my tips red, hot hot hair.spice. and tonight I'm going to spend the night at Carly's shes not doing too good right now her and robert broke up, but its his loss. I got to see Blake on Wednesday I <3 him and ben.

    <3

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Current Music: Welcome to Your Life
    Monday, September 9th, 2002
    3:20 pm
    YAY! FUCKED OVER AGAIN! WOO
    soo yes Im incredibly excited about being fucked over again! I knew i should have listened to myself and stayed away,i knew it. guys are fucking assholes. i swear im incapable of being loved, no more like i want to love the wrong ones, yeah thats it, so yeah ive been in irvine alot lately hanging out with the crew,nice. ill find a guy i know i will.but i need to stop fucking looking.meh whatever, it was my fauly, again. im an idiot.

    <3

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: caliban
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